I’m not sure when my life changed so much.
Life used to be about chasing after a child and managing shared parenting. It was difficult at times. There were ups and downs for sure. I made it through some great times and some really bad times. My life always has revolved around me helping others and taking care of others. It was always hard when I needed to ask for help and I had to ask for a lot over the years.
Now life is about me, usually.
I spend a lot of time working, not having to chase a child around, but I now have one dog and 2 cats…most of the time. I have recently become part of a foster group and usually have an extra dog and cat hanging around.
I have found that I am a homebody. Like part of me wants to go out and do things and then part of me just says “nah” and I stay in.
Take for example today. I gave an open invitation to friends to stop by for dinner and when they couldn’t make it, instead of looking for something else to do, I yanked my bra off, put on pajama pants and made myself dinner. Put on some HGTV and played Candy Crush. I skipped working and really just ignored the world.
Now, was my choice “healthy”? Probably not. Should I have gone to the gym, visited a friend, worked or done something more productive? Probably.
So now I am looking at one more quick walk with the dog and being in bed by 9:00 pm.
I wonder when my life changed. When I stopped worrying about dating and being a social extrovert to accepting single and becoming introverted.
At some point I stopped giving a shit what people thought of me, my looks and my attitude. I dyed my hair, pierced my nose and stopped worrying about being fashionable and instead chose to worry about being with those who want to spend time with me and caring for animals.
Life has changed a lot in 40 years that’s for sure and each day I look forward to another challenge.
This is 40 and 40 is for me.