Life has been passing me by these last few weeks – it all seems like a blur.  I have had good intentions of:

  • Calling friends
  • Meal planning
  • Running
  • Visiting the gym
  • Going to the store
  • Cooking
  • Cleaning
  • Visiting friends
  • Catching up with family
  • Visiting my nephew
  • Walking Pippa 
  • So much more…

Instead I am working, trying to date, sleep, catch up on TV shows and make sure I don’t look like a character from The Walking Dead. 

There are so many things I want to do, but self-care has been lacking lately. I need a massage desperately, time to pick up some hairspray and a quick trip to find some clothes that do not include leggings and over sized shirts.

Fortunately I was able to take some time out to see the King & I and eat a great meal at Momocho this past week. This was the best kind of self care that I could fit in with everything going on. 

I also had a first date and managed to paint my nails and have a nice night in with some pizza and watching Snowden, which makes me hopeful for a second date (I will write more about this later). 

It has been a rough few weeks with having a work/life balance. I feel like all I have been doing is working and taking care of my home/family.

Balance in life is hard.  I’m tired, happy in pajamas over dress clothes and visiting the gym is just a random fleeting thought lately.

How am I supposed to have the energy to do everything for everyone and still find time for me?  At the end of the day my TV and a bowl of popcorn makes me happy.

Sort of. 

I am missing a partner, a lover, a person who is there to listen and talk to each day and who is there to take care of me, like I will take care of them.

I like my space, structure, freedom and independence.  On the other hand, I like people, a family, sense of belonging and being loved. 

I’m torn in life right now.  So very torn. 

That list up top are all things I wish I had time and energy to do, but today pajamas and popcorn are winning – along with a trip to the park with Pippa, because I love her. 

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