Life has been passing me by these last few weeks – it all seems like a blur. I have had good intentions of:
- Calling friends
- Meal planning
- Visiting the gym
- Going to the store
- Visiting friends
- Catching up with family
- Visiting my nephew
- Walking Pippa
- So much more…
Instead I am working, trying to date, sleep, catch up on TV shows and make sure I don’t look like a character from The Walking Dead.
There are so many things I want to do, but self-care has been lacking lately. I need a massage desperately, time to pick up some hairspray and a quick trip to find some clothes that do not include leggings and over sized shirts.
I also had a first date and managed to paint my nails and have a nice night in with some pizza and watching Snowden, which makes me hopeful for a second date (I will write more about this later).
It has been a rough few weeks with having a work/life balance. I feel like all I have been doing is working and taking care of my home/family.
Balance in life is hard. I’m tired, happy in pajamas over dress clothes and visiting the gym is just a random fleeting thought lately.
How am I supposed to have the energy to do everything for everyone and still find time for me? At the end of the day my TV and a bowl of popcorn makes me happy.
I am missing a partner, a lover, a person who is there to listen and talk to each day and who is there to take care of me, like I will take care of them.
I like my space, structure, freedom and independence. On the other hand, I like people, a family, sense of belonging and being loved.
I’m torn in life right now. So very torn.
That list up top are all things I wish I had time and energy to do, but today pajamas and popcorn are winning – along with a trip to the park with Pippa, because I love her.